If Only.....

I have pilfered a whole load of piccies from my mum and have scanned them so I can scrap them. I finished this today, I started it a bout a month ago and it is nothing like that which was in my head but I am quite pleased with it. It was quite emotional to do though! This is my Uncle, my mums brother. He tragically dies 5 days after I was born. I never new him. He is my only uncle from my mums side. Is strange because if it is possible I really miss him! Or miss knowing him.

Journalling reads " I never got a chance to know my Uncle Massoud. Tragically he died 5 days after I was born-the day before Peggahs birthday! As an only son in a family of girls he had a special place I think. His death broke my grandparents Mammy Sorour and Baba Omid. Just 5 days...just 5 days after I was born, for 5 days I had a real Diey. A maternal Unlce! I never really thought about him as a child growing up, but now as a mum myself I have started thinking about him. Peggah was lucky enough to have known him and I know he loved her. They spent time together smiling, laughing, hugs and kisses. There are photos to show. I dont have that, what I shared with Diey Massoud is sharing FIVE days on the same planet. I wonder what it would have been like had he lived. He would have doted on us neices and nephews I'm sure!! Perhaps he would have had kids two-other cousins. He would have had fun with us, and now if he had lived he would see my son Ibrahim! I know his life was not alwys happy as it should have been, it pains me that you suffered so much in your short life now especially since I can glimpse in to some of that pain. I wish I had memories of you like Peggah. I wish I had keepsakes and photos of us laughing and smiling together. I wish you had lived to see me and us cousins growing in to men and women. I wish you had met my husband and son. I wish you had not felt so desperate and pained. I wish you had lived and I really really wish I'd had the chance to know you!! "

I miss you Diey Massoud, may you rest in eternal peace and blessing!(Ok I am going to stop with this now as I'm welling up again!)

Even though it looks yellow this is actually a kind of green paper from the fatastic Basic grey Urban Couture papers. I cut the bird out of another BG UC paper, MM velvet letters, papermania metal letters, MM alpha stamps. And lots and lots of journalling with my zig pen!

xxSaffa